I’ve wanted to write about my journey for years, and now I’ve finally made it a reality by creating my own blog. My awakening journey began in 2022. Before that, I was just a normal human living life unconsciously, not truly understanding the deeper meaning of my existence. I used to be an obedient person, living up to whatever my parents, society, and others expected of me as a daughter, mother, and entrepreneur. Most of my life back then was about pure survival: chasing income, raising my family, and taking care of my children. I worked tirelessly just to make sure there was money to sustain us. I rarely gave myself time to rest. On weekdays, I poured all my energy into my business. On weekends, I spent almost every moment with my family. I distinctly remember cooking dinner on weekends most of the time, and then going out for drinks with my family afterward. By the end of it, I was completely exhausted—left feeling entirely numb. I simply didn’t allow myself to pause. I was trapped under the weight of work, family issues, and endless responsibilities, constantly wearing the heavy masks of the “perfect” mother, daughter, and businesswoman. Living solely to fulfill those roles was exhausting and hollow. I didn’t have true friends during that period. My children were my highest priority, so spending time with friends felt like an unnecessary luxury. I also never allowed myself to travel. I believed my children needed me by their side at all times, and I was convinced my business couldn’t survive without my constant oversight. Looking back, I was living in a self-imposed prison created by those “perfect” identities. My ego felt safe there, telling me that sacrificing everything for my family was simply what I was supposed to do. That was the old me.
